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like, you know, Chinese medicine and things like that, have shown for millennia that each body part is correlated to different emotional experiences. Now we are starting to catch up in the Eastern world with really seeing this, and we can see it in so many different aspects of like, when they've actually done transplants, when they take organs from one person who can no longer use them, and give them to somebody who needs them, that person who received the organs starts having personality changes. They have all of these, like, memories that they can't figure out where they came from because they technically weren't there, so they were the person who had the organ before it. And what we're starting to learn more and more deeply is that not only do we hold emotions in our body, we actually hold memories throughout our entire body, not just our brain, like we think that we have memories in our brain. So understanding our body is important because we need to understand these impulses, these signals that are happening. But why? So if you have been like me, you're probably like, okay, you know, I want to feel fulfilled like I want to feel like I'm making a difference. And I remember getting into nursing and was working in a float pool, and very quickly being like, I don't think this is I need something, and I don't think this is it. And I was like, you know, critical care is going to be the thing for me. And then getting into critical care and going into that cardiac ICU, which was like, oh my goodness, this is like my dream nursing job, and then realizing, okay, that still didn't quite make me feel the way that I want to. And it's so human of us to think that, you know, I'll be happy when there's going to be this magical finish line that we get to that says, you know, yes, I am now happy. I have reached the goal that I had in my mind. The problem is, we've spent so long conditioning ourselves to think, Oh, I'll only be happy when I achieve XYZ. I'll only be happy when I'm going to be successful. I'll only be happy when I get to this point. But a lot of the times that when isn't truly defined. So if we actually get to that point, our brains already on to the next when it's already moved on. It's hard because, because it's not the finish line that actually made us happy. We actually have to create and find the evidence to make us happy. So what I mean to say is this, if we've conditioned our brain for literally decades to feel that we're not doing enough, that we're not far enough along, that you know, people are mistreating us, or they don't understand us, or we're a
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loser, or whatever it is. And even if you don't like logically believe it, but you still have that, like that little voice in the back your head that's telling you these things, there is subconscious brain that does believe it, because it heard it over and over and over again, generally, as a child, and it created these belief systems, even if we don't logically want to agree with it, we're like, logically, I know that's not true, but this is what our subconscious picked up when we were a kid. And it's continued throughout your life to try to find evidence to reinforce it. And because that belief system and that way of thinking has been reinforced for so long, we have emotionally we think a thought, and then we have an emotional response in our body, and our emotional response because we thought that thought, even if it was subconscious, happens over and over and over again. So we didn't actually feel those feelings. Right? You might feel a certain kind of way, whether it be quote, unquote, positive or negative. But how long did you actually sit with it? Do you actually process where you were feeling it in your body? Did you actually process what that even means most of us, if I'm like, Okay, how many emotions do you know what feels like in your body? And you could probably let name like less than a handful, like most people can be like, I got anxiety down to a science. I can probably feeling anxiety, I could probably feel anger, I could feel sadness, guilt. A lot of us can be real familiar with those, but we have so practiced in feeling those emotions. When it comes down to feeling better, feeling emotions, we don't even know where to start, because we felt the other way for so long, and you really only have so much capacity to feel certain things. So if you only have 100% capacity, if you're at 100% capacity most of the time, because you have decades worth of anxiety, frustration, resentment, sadness, like, piled up in your body trying to get yourself to feel a better feeling emotion you're already at capacity. It's like next to impossible. This is why we say information. You're like, I am worthy, and then your subconscious brain is like, No, you're not. Here's like 87 reasons why not. And you can't get the emotion behind it, because you haven't got the capacity. So how, like, what happens when we're maxed out of our capacity? You probably have experienced this many times in your life. Have you ever got into you don't even want to get into an argument, but you, like, magically found yourself in an argument, and you're like, all of a sudden, super defensive. You say things you don't want to say, You react in ways you regret after you're like, I don't even know who that crazy bitch was, but that definitely wasn't me. That is when we've overmaxed Our capacity, we have gotten so filled up that our subconscious brain basically, like our fight flight system, like our nervous system, takes over, and we're like, we have to expel emotions, but this is the only way that I know how, and that is, when we get reactive, we don't have the capacity to choose how to respond, because we are literally maxed out emotionally. So if you don't want to respond that way, if you don't want to randomly cry out of nowhere when you're like I don't even know why I'm upset, you've literally just reached your capacity of emotions or react those way. We have to create space. So I want you to think about it in the like, in the way of so I have a house with furniture in it, and I decide that I want new furniture for my home, right? I want new furniture. Can I go buy a new couch and a new dining room set and just bring it in and put it on top of the old couch and dining room set? It'll be real cozy. You might not like it, right? We have to remove the old furniture in order to create space for the new furniture, and this is the same for our bodies and our emotional experiences, right? And our belief systems. We have to release the old emotional experiences that we no longer want to be overwhelming us and running the show automatically without us truly choosing them to create space for those better feeling emotional experiences, the ones that we actually want to intentionally choose and run in the show. And so embodiment is truly a tool to connect more deeply with your body, to start understanding. Hey, I had these thoughts. This was the electrical signal that went to my body. This is the sensation that happened in my body. And I can now know, okay, this is what this means. This is what I'm feeling. And I can show up more intentionally and understanding with an understanding of, oh, you know, I'm feeling a certain kind of way I can go into the situation without blowing up at my spouse. Because I'm like, Okay, I'm like, level 10 angry right now. So I know if I go talk to my spouse, it probably isn't going to end the way that I wanted to, maybe I need to take a few minutes to go for a walk, to do some emotional processing, and then I can go talk to my spouse. It's probably going to be a much more constructive conversation, but we have to recognize this. And this is really like learning this is the biggest thing that completely changes everything, because you have so much more understanding of yourself, and you don't get in all these sticky situations where you're like, I don't even know. I just blew up. I couldn't I didn't even see it coming. My emotions blindsided me. So there's a lot of different emotional embodiment and emotional processing tools, many of which you know, are extremely effective. I and choose, I personally tend to choose the embodiment path. There's many different therapy modalities that you can use, like talk therapy, can get into the emotional side of things, but when you're doing it, you do want to tap into those emotions and what they are, rather than just talking about them, because talking about them What does not process the actual emotions. Things that go a little bit deeper, like EMDR therapy can definitely help you process a lot of emotions. There's different techniques, like energy healing and Reiki and things like that. There is tapping practices that can help your brain and your body process the emotions and things like that. There's just different visualization things. So with embodiment, this is something that I use personally. I use it with a lot of clients in different client sessions, when I am intuitively figuring out, okay, like, what is the root belief system that is causing their pattern, that thing that keeps showing up in their life? And they're like, oh my god, this is like, here we go again. It's happening over and over again. We what I can do is intuitively look in and figure out, okay, like, this is the the belief system that is here. But with each belief system, there's emotion that is paired with that. And a lot of the emotions are deeper than just, like, happiness, sadness, grief. Like, there's a lot of there's like, hundreds of actual emotions that, and I know it takes a lot to name them all, but the more deeply you can connect into what it is, the easier it is to release. So we're going to go and do a few different emotions with this emotional practicing. So we're going to learn some things, we're going to practice some things so that you can kind of start to integrate that. If you wanted to come and watch this and with a particular intention of like, Hey, I have this pattern. It keeps happening. I don't really know what the emotion is, or I don't really know what the root belief system is. That's fine. Kind of setting the intention, when you go into emotionally processing, you can allow your body and your higher self to kind of help guide you in what is most prevalent. And that could just be your intention when you go into emotions, is, you know, I'm just going to set the intention to release what is most important for me to release right now. So that's kind of leading right into the
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first thing, which is intention setting. What is your goal? And if you're here, and this is like your first exposure to any sort of emotional processing work, your goal could literally just be, what is emotional processing? My goal is to figure out what I'm doing. It's all good. And it doesn't have to be anything super intense, super crazy. It could be like, you know, what? I just feeling kind of blah lately, like, maybe I need to release something, or I just feel like I'm snapping at the, you know, this tiniest little thing I'm driving down the road, somebody cuts me off, and I'm like, 10 out of 10 angry. Maybe some anger release is what you need. So really, it can be anything we want to start with that intention setting, and this is really where, as I kind of quickly mentioned, you can ask your body to guide you, and we're going to go into different ways that your body can guide you. Because body can guide you, because your body is really like, it's like, almost like, like, the dictionary for all of the emotions that we have experienced in our life that we've never processed. And if you never actually learn to process the emotions, it's very rare that you haven't like, you don't have an overwhelming quantity of emotions trapped in your body. So each of your body parts has different emotions, where it's kind of holding on to and so this may just be an eye opening experience, and that's kind of what I want you to get, just checking in with your body. What does it feel like? Where is this happening? Like? What does this mean? And we can go on this from both directions. We can go on it from the side of I am experiencing that blahness, or I'm experiencing like anger, or I'm just constantly frustrated. I'm constantly annoyed by people great. Pick that thing that you're feeling all the time. Go with it, choosing that this is something that I want to release during my emotional processing experience, my embodiment practice, whatever you want to call it. There's also the side of I have physical discomfort in one area of my body. And yes, there is, you know, medical background being like, okay, there is some medical reason that I have this physical discomfort in my body, but I also know it to be true that I hold emotions in a lot of my body parts, and so if I want to feel better or make the medicine or the physiotherapy or the chiropractic or the Whatever you're doing work more effectively. I can release the emotions, and it's going to be a so much smoother process, because I don't have all of the emotional things. So back to the science of everything comes back to photons, right? Everything back comes back to light. This is really interesting, is that when we have darker emotions. And I don't like think that, like, I don't like the word negative, as in their like, awful emotions. It's just like those more difficult to feel emotions, sadness, resentment, frustration, shame, guilt, all these, these emotions are less light. They have darker qualities. They don't have as high of a vibration frequency as you know, joy, love, gratitude, all these things. And so if you've stored tons and tons and tons of these darker feeling emotions in a certain area, they actually can see that like so if you go for an MRI like, you'll see a diseased area is actually, like, darker and more dense than a lot of like, the healthier tissues and different organs and bones and things show up differently, but it shows more dark. So this is so interesting, because it's like, okay, if we had higher feeling energies, they're lighter versus the darker. So kind of an interesting like, oh, you can actually scientifically back up some of this. And when you shift it and you heal it and process it, those those locations say it could be your knee or something will be darker because there's and then you could make it brighter as you process and release those emotions, getting it back to its natural state. Okay, so we set intentions. What are we trying to process? What is the goal? So it could be, I'm trying to process a particular emotion, or I have a part in my body that is causing me a physical discomfort. I want to try to release whatever's there. I don't even know what's there, but I'm going to try to release whatever's there, or I'm just going to let you know, let my higher self, let me guide me. Whatever is needed to be released can be released. So before we jump into anything, we want to ground ourselves and create safety in the nervous system, especially if we've really never processed emotions before.
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Our ego brain and like the like, lower brain stem, subconscious brain that is designed to protect us from the unknown might get really uncomfortable because, like, I don't know what I'm not I don't know what to get into. Like, this sounds kind of scary. It maybe is traumatic. I don't want to feel those kinds of feelings, all those things. So we create a grounding practice. And before I do any sort of emotional processing work, before I do any sort of sessions with anybody, or when I start my day, I basically do this practice. So I will walk you guys through this really just quick visualization practice of connecting to gold and pink gold. Excuse
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me. One second. Um,
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I don't know if I swallowed a dog hair or what, like I got that tickled out of nowhere. Oh, okay, so back at it when we connect to gold, gold light is like source energy, God energy, universal energy, whatever you choose to resonate most with. And then we're going to connect to pink energy. And this is like a rose colored pink, I like, literally have a notebook that's kind of the right kind of shade of pink. So, like that, rose colored pink is ground, like the Earth's energy. So we want to connect ourselves into source, God, the universe, and then the Earth's energy. And this kind of creates this grounding space for our nervous systems and our body to feel a little more open, and then we'll connect to our higher selves, which is going to help us overcome some of those like this is going to be scary. I don't want to see what comes up kind of feelings which is totally normal, especially the first kind of times you might not experience as much as if you've practiced this a few times, that's all very, very normal, because this is a learned skill, right? You can't walk into the gym and deadlift 500 pounds is is not going to go well. You're going to injure yourself. Don't even try, right? You have to go incrementally higher, 510, 1520, 100 right? And so the same is true for emotions like you may only get a small emotional response or a small sensation to this first time. That's okay, trust it, know that you're making a difference, and then come back, rewatch, repeat, see how it goes when you do it more and more. So creating this, what you're going to do is just get comfortable in your seat. You can do a standing can do it anywhere, like you can just do this walking down the street. But right now, I want you to kind of just ground yourself into wherever you are, and you're going to visualize like 300 feet above your head, a ocean of gold light. So this is, you can see it's coming from the trees. It's coming from everything around us. Everything around us has that light energy. Everything is created with light. So this is this beautiful gold light, just seeing a huge ocean above your head, and see that filtering down, almost through a funnel, coming and pouring over your body and filling out every single cell pouring into your Head, your brain, your face, your jaw, down your neck, down your shoulders, your arms, your wrists, your hands, down your chest, your abdomen, your spine and back, filling out every cell of your hips and glutes, down your thighs, your knees, your calves and shins, your ankles and feet, and then from the bottom of your feet, I want you to visualize really deep tree roots, like a big oak tree, kind of grounding you deep into the earth, through all the layers of the earth, and kind of to the Earth's core, and pulling up this grounding, healing earth energy. This is that light pink energy feeling it all the way up those tree roots, filling out every cell in your body, bringing that healing energy into every single cell, up your feet, your ankles, your calves and shins, your knees, your thighs, hips and glutes, up your spine and back up your abdomen, your chest, over your shoulders, down your arms into Your hands, up your neck, your face, into your brain and how your hair and skin, taking a deep breath in with that and setting the intention to allow our higher self to guide us in what is needed to be shifted, what is needed To be released, and what is going to benefit us most.
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So if you're struggling with that process, you can visualize yourself walking up to a gold rimmed mirror and see on the other side, it's you, but it's not quite you. It's you with no limitations. It's you with no limiting beliefs. It's you that fully is your authentic self. Fully believes in you. You completely unrestricted. This is your higher self, and you can either, like reach out and grab her hand and have her kind of come with you, or you can see your current version and that higher self version merging into one, and we are sending the intention that our higher self is kind of With us, guiding us, processing us for the germ the remainder of this session. So now we get into what it actually starts the process, the embodiment processing. So remembering our intention, we're going to do a internal body scan. So you're going to just, you can visualize it, or you can just feel it. So some people are really good at like, seeing things in their mind eye, so you can see your body and scanning from top to bottom, or you can physically feel your body. If you can't visualize, there is no right or wrong way. So internally, doing that body scan. Oh, just noticing, okay, going back down from my head down my shoulders and arms, my chest, my hips, my glutes, thighs, legs. Is there a place that draws my attention more than any other place. If you're doing the visual, maybe there's a place that's a little bit darker, bringing your body there, we want to start to notice the sensations that are happening here. A lot of the time when we have decades worth of emotion is really constricted and dense, and again, if you're a feeling kind of person, what does that feel like? If you're a visual person, what does that look like?
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And I want you to start to kind of connect back into that, like, where is this experience coming from? Where is this feeling coming from?
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to start to bring in some music to help this process. So when we connect into this emotion, there's different things that we want to do, and the emotion is just that sensation. We don't have to overthink it. You don't have to be like, Oh my God, I don't know if I'm feeling an emotion. You're feeling something that's all right, so we want to start describing it. If we're a visual person, right? Like, is there a visual that goes along with it? Is there a texture? Is there waves? Is it spiky? Is it rough? Is it smooth? Is there like a temperature? Is it hot? Is it cold? I
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when you continue to focus in on it, does it shift and change? Does it stay exactly the same now, remembering that everything, every body signal is always coming back to energy. So tuning into the energy that is in here, can we start to move it? Are there waves of energy that can move it? Are they little waves, small, little vibrations. Are they big, full waves of energy moving.
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You want to start to expand the sensation that like ball of energy, however it looks, and you might get a visual, might might look like a box or something. That's really cool, too. Let whatever comes through comes through, and just know you know wherever it is. It makes sense. It makes sense for your body. So we can tap into this, and this is where we can bring different things in. Just like this song, there's this humming into it. What were to happen if we were to bring sound into the experience. If we were to hum, Grunt, groan, you want to scream, all these things create different energy, different vibrations, different things that can help us process it, other things that we can incorporate our physical movements, and this is where the embodiment practice really kind of ramps up, and we'll get into it a little bit more soon, Is that physical sensation of actually moving your body to release emotions. So what happens is a lot of these things are forced down, pushed down, constricted into this tiny little ball of energy, and we want to start to shift it, move it, expand it, so that we can get it out of our body, right? We're getting the old furniture out so we can bring the new furniture in. And so embodiment is actually the process of fully moving your body. And we can move we can with music, is what I normally do to release emotions. And this is not just like dancing to the music. This is creating a movement in your body based on what your body is telling you it needs. So I notice, okay, I have a tingling in my hands, all right. I just, what do I need to do about this tingling that I have in my hands? Okay? I feel like I just got to shake them right, like we can just shake them, or like I have like, a kink in my back, okay, how do I need to do that? Do I need to arch my back back? I do I need to, kind of like, do, like the full windmill arms or whatnot, like, how do you trust your body enough to create a movement that starts to shift that sensation that's happening, shift that focal point, wherever that energy is being stored? How do you start to get it out? We can bring in physical, like, touch to it as well. Like me, okay, maybe, you know, maybe I just need to, like, it's all stiffness in my shoulder. Can I tap on it? Can I, can I, like, brush it off? Can I, like, pinch it? Like, maybe I have these visual chains that I've been putting on myself, where I've been holding myself back for so long, and I feel like I gotta just like, rip those chains off. This is about you trusting yourself and to start with. And you know this like you're doing it in the safety of your own home. You go to a retreat. If you come to, you know, one of my retreats, what I would like to host in the near future, you're going to be doing it with a group of people, and I think that's a powerful experience, because it's no longer uncomfortable and weird when everybody's doing it. And it helps you open up and say, Okay, I'm not alone in this. This is amazing, but I want you to start practicing that you know, in the safety of your comfort of your own home, of like, how does it feel when I move in certain ways? How does it feel when I allow my my body to communicate with me, and we can bring in that physical movement to allow it, and this is something that I like to do, is I pair the body movement in with visualization. So if I had, like, because I'm a really visual person in my brain, in my like mind's eye, like, so I'll be like, okay, like, I have this ball of
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rejection, and that ball of rejection is kind of held in my, like solar plexus area, so like the right at the bottom of my rib cage. So when I visualized, and I've shifted this a lot, but when I was visualizing it, it was like this spiky red, reddish orange ball, like there was a lot of spikes on it, but it was like brittle plastic that had been left in the sun for too long. And so I was like, Okay, I gotta break this up. So not only was I moving my body in a way that felt right for me, I was visualizing, like, I literally would visualize like a hammer, like breaking all those pieces of plastic apart so that I could just, like, expand it, release it. So this is like, all different techniques, right? And I'm telling you a bunch of different ways. You can use the color, you can use the energy movement, you can use the temperature. You can use that physical, physical sensation of like you, using your hands to tap it, brush it like pound on it. However it is, we can use sound, the humming, grunting, groaning, whatever, to get it to move, to shift. We can also so some of my practices, sometimes I will have like memories that'll come up if I had the intention to, you know, say the rejection one. Let's keep with that same theme, if I had the intention of releasing rejection, because I was getting all these like reflections, which basically are somewhere a reflection is you being out of balance somewhere in your life, your higher self is always trying to get you back to being in balance. So you will get all of these patterns and things happening to you, whether it be like, super, like, personal, whether it be physical, whether it be other people treating you a certain way to light up and show you like, oh yeah. Like, this is a this is an issue. How do I bring it back into a more like, aligned place, right? So if I'm getting those, if I'm if I'm choosing to release rejection with me, sometimes I'll be like, Okay, what is in the memory that is associated with this? Like, and sometimes it'll come through really clear, like, Oh, I remember an exact moment, you know, when I was in grade school where I felt that, and that was where it all started, right? So a lot of the times, the first time we have a emotional experience that's really strong our bodies, I mean, our brains say, the stronger like the emotion is, the more important it is to remember this. So a lot of the times, this is why, when we look back at our childhood, we're like, I remember the really good things, like the trip to Disney World or whatever, but I also remember the really bad things, because the stronger the emotion is, the more important your brain says, Oh, this is really important. We have to remember this. We got to use this moving forward. Excuse me, so we take that knowledge in order to connect and make new better feelings. So we can use these same practices to create those new things. But sometimes processing the memories while you're doing this can be that, like this very therapeutic in releasing those and letting those no longer be the thing that runs the show. Because if I'm constantly going about my life now fearing rejection, I may not be putting myself out there as much, and I'm kind of rejecting myself in advance, and that's not allowing me, that's that's not allowing me to be who I truly want to be, and it creates those emotions and those feelings of just like not really being where you want to be, right. It's harder to feel fulfilled when we're always holding ourselves back. So these are just different ways of doing it. Other things that can be really powerful is breath work. So breath work is truly, there's so many different ways of using the breath, but we can create that like movement through our body, of like, okay, I can inhale, I can span, expand it, I can exhale, and I can release it. And we can use the visualizations, or the sensations, if you're not a visual person, to shift and move things through the body, through the breath. How does it feel when I do like, really short, rapid breaths? Does that amplify, especially if it's like a anxiety, or like one of those kinds of emotions that's going to amplify it? Like, do I want to amplify it, to release it? I don't know. Maybe. Or do I need to take, okay, I'm feeling the anxiety, but I need to take very slow, intentional, longer exhale than inhale, and that's going to bring it down. What is needed to release it for you, what is needed for it to be
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out or expanded out of you. And that goes into, how do we like, visualize and feel it being released from our body? So we want to use all those things to describe it, to recognize it, to even name it. Like, what is that emotion? Is it something? Maybe I thought it was anger, but it's actually not like maybe it's that resentment instead of anger, right? Those could be similar, but, no, they're not quite the same. So once we've expanded it, we've grown it, we've seen it, we felt it, we've been there. How do we get it out? So we have, like, energy centers and energy points in our body that we can shift and move energy out of everybody's are different. And every single time you do it, it may be different. Maybe it's, you know, it's easiest to if it's like, in your rib cage. You can, like, bring it out to your chest and like, see it, like coming out of your chest. Maybe it's in you can, like, see it, like being like, you can push it out of your hands, maybe it's out of your head or your mouth or the bottoms of your feet. We can see it. We can feel it being moved and shifted out of our body. And then once it's out of our body, it's just, you know, we we have processed it and we have released it, but we can't do that too fast. We have to experience it. And this doesn't need to be a long time. Emotions, really, when they've done research on an emotional experience, that electrical signal impulse is actually only designed to last like 30 to max, 90 seconds. But when we resist it, what we resist persists, and when we continue to think those same thoughts that created those emotional experience, that emotional experience could literally be like months and years long. So this doesn't need to be a super long practice. Today. We're going to do it for a little while, but if you're only got five minutes like you could process and shift a full emotional experience in that time. So
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before we jump into working through some emotional experiences today, when you're doing this, when you are processing these heavier, deeper emotions. I don't want you to like maybe if you only have a few minutes and you just feel like you got to be sad for a few minutes, feel the sadness, and I can tell you from personal experience, once you finish feeling the sadness, you're going to feel a lot better. You're going to feel a lot lighter. But if you're doing embodiment work, or continuing to process and practice emotions on a regular basis. I really want to encourage you to not just feel the one emotion and then done. I really want you to finish with a couple of songs or feelings that leave you feeling that gratitude, that appreciation, the acceptance, the confidence, like you want to create something that feels better. Remember, we talked about the furniture, right? We got to move out the old furniture, to move in the new furniture. So what we did was we released all of that old furniture, so we created space for new furniture, if you don't pick out the new furniture, magically, Joe down the street is going to, you know, bring his old couch and drop it off in your driveway, and now you're going to have an old couch to replace your old couch, right? Your brain is going to find new things to fill that emotional space with that may not be what you want to fill it. So we want to release the old thing, and then we want to be like, Oh no, I want to pick out my really nice couch because I'm a little boujee, and I want it to look a certain way, and I want it to be a certain way and feel a certain way, right? Like we want that like esthetically pleasing, but also super comfy, cozy couch so that's why we want to always finish our emotional processing practice. We use the same tools we can use, the temperature, color, physical sensation, sounds, the energy, but we're pulling it in and practicing to feel those better feeling emotions. So again, we can set the intention of like, what is that better feeling emotion that I truly am craving to feel? What is it for me and finding be really, really beneficial? Because the more we practice, the easier it is to tap into if you want to feel joy, if you want to feel fulfilled, you want to feel like you're making a difference, those things don't happen automatically. There is no magical finish line when you all of a sudden feel those ways. You have to find the evidence, and you have to connect in with those emotions. So just like going to the gym to with your goal of lift or dead lifting 500 pounds. You can't do that just showing up. That's like saying I want to feel fulfilled, and then not actually figure, like, where, what does it even feel like? I don't know. Like, where do you feel it in your body? What? What kind of things bring on fulfillment? No idea, right? No idea. So doing this is like showing up to do your reps at the gym. You are creating this repetition and muscle memory for feeling those ways that you choose and want to feel. So it's so much easier to tap into it, and it'll become automatic, just like, if you're the person who goes to the gym every day, at first, you had to force yourself to go, but then it's just habitual. You're just that's automatically what you connect into. Same if you want to feel fulfillment, it'll become habitual. It's automatically what you connect into. But you have to kind of do your reps. You have to do find the evidence and connect in with the feeling in order for it to become automatic for you. So any questions before we move into the actual processing with the music?
Janna Holterman 49:20
All right. So this, if you feel comfortable with it, I would suggest, you know, step back, create some space to move your body. And we, I will kind of walk you through. We're gonna do some songs that feel some like sadness, we're gonna do some songs that probably feel some anger, and then we will do the empowering songs, and then we will kind of wrap up and go from there. So we are going to jump in by just kind of starting in whatever position you feel most comfortable. And this is something like, you know, use up whatever space you have if you want to sit on the floor, sit on the floor. If you want to just kind of be in the space, sit on the ground, stand. Let that be. So we are kind of just again, connecting into our body, and it should be a little easier than when we did it 15 minutes ago, reconnecting, just visualizing again, that gold going from head to toe, that pink from toe to head,
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and then that body scan. Again, I'm are
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setting that intention with our higher self to connect in help you, guide you in shifting and releasing what is ready to be shifted and released. So we're going to start with that sadness where in your body do you feel sadness
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as you scan your body?
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Where is drawing your attention more strongly than anywhere else?
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What have you experienced that you just couldn't let go of and it got buried here
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as a child, what did I go through? I'm still holding on to coming
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back to those textures. What is the texture here? Yeah, is there a color associated with it? What shape is this energy in?
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Yay. I continue to hold on to it. Where does that leave me? Yay?
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How do I see this? How do I witness what is here? Is there emotions that go along with this,
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what comes Next for me?
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How do I start to expand this
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what is holding me here? What am I holding on to?
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Early morning, there's a message on my phone. It's my mother's day.
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How could you leave a soul? How do you need to share so much to say, but there's so little to let
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that energy, that emotion,
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goodbye, someone who's been with me for my whole damn life, you gave me my name and the color of your ass. See your face when I look at mine. So how do I? How do I? How do I say goodbye when I couldn't you always saw the best in me, right or wrong. You were always on my side, but I'm scared of what life without you sliding and I saw the way she looked into me, right? And I promise, if you go, I will make sure she's alright. So how do I say goodbye someone who's been with me for my whole damn life. You gave me my name and I see your face when I look mine. There's no
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way you could ever let me down. Gonna steal some time and start again. You'll always be my closest friend, and someday you're gonna make it out. Just hold the light. Just hold the light hiding high. So how do I say goodbye someone who's been with me for my whole damn life, you gave me my name and see your face when I look
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mine. So how do I
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say goodbye? So, how do I, how do I, how do I say goodbye, you?
Janna Holterman 57:04
So continuing to expand that emotion, how do we start releasing it from our body? How do we expand it to kind of bring it to a point where we can shove it out of our body? Do we need to tap on it? Do we just shake it? Do we need to brush it? How to Get it shifting leaving the body.
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Tables and chairs won by all of the dial.
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What kind of visual do you need to feel fully safe to release this. How do you see you know, maybe it's like bringing in that little version of us. This is from a childhood thing. How do we make her feel seeing her safe to bring that and shift that, bringing in those tools You've learned, physical movement, visualization, colors, temperature shifts, sound
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To me time. Time
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This is where we start to take that emotion and we want to alchemize it into something. How does it shift? How does it move? Maybe this sadness is starting to turn into this is a story. How is this shift in you? How is this giving you a strength? I gotta get this sometimes when we're really pissed off, that motivates us more than
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anything else. I need to take back the light inside your stool that you're a criminal and you steal like you're the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound, so ashamed, so confused. I was broken and bruised. Now I'm a lawyer. Now I've got thicker skin. I'm stronger than I've ever been in my eyes,
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than I've ever
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been out of the ashes I'm burning like a fire like that.
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I've got shame. I've got scars that I will never show. I'm a survivor.
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I'm always and you know,
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cause all the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound, so ashamed, so confused. I'm not broken. I'm bruised because now I'm aware.
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Why you and you can never hurt me. There's a part of me I can't get back. A little girl grew up too fast. All it took was once. I'll never be the same, and I want taking back my life today. Nothing left that you can say, cause you're never gonna take the blame
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anyway. Now I'm a lawyer. I got thicker skin.
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I'm Stronger than you can never
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hold you can never hurt me again. This next one is when we're bringing in like THAT BAD GIRL anger, Right? Like we're embodying why we're saying,
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temperatures is
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my I like your blood on my teeth,
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just a little too much.
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Your blood on my teeth, just a little too much. Slap me around the face. Now I'm twisting your
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arm till I every breath, I get stronger every day holding back he
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Honey,
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don't tell me. Do a
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call at me. Don't
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tell me I did the war.
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Yeah, get enough kick a back of
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my knee? Are you serious? Now I'm twisting your arm till I get stronger every day.
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Every day I've changed so much Since
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go? Where? Are you going? Going? How do we take that and start shifting and changing? If we weren't angry about something, we probably wouldn't change it. So we can be, you know, happy that we had that experience in order to alchemize it into something beautiful. Where's that? That purpose, that passion, starting to see that what does your Higher Self want you to take these experiences, these emotions, and turn them into and the walls won't hold
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cause from that rubble. What remains can only be once true. If all was lost, there's more I gained, because it led me back
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to you. From now on,
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where are you going? This will not be
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blinded by the light.
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What do you want for yourself, more than anything?
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What's waited till tomorrow and starts tonight?
Janna Holterman 1:07:53
What is your purpose? You don't know it. But what does it feel like? Janna, bring into our body, you know, asking your higher self, okay, what does it feel like to have this purpose, to know I'm exactly where I need to be right now, shifting what I need to shift, learning, what I need to learn, bringing in a little more energy with that. How can you take a ring face kings and queens? Apologize, name a version of you who is completely unrestricted, someone
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else's dream, pitfalls of the man I became.
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For years and years, I chased their cheers crazy speed of always needing more. But when
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I stop and see you here, I remember who all this was for.
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Remember these eyes would not be blinded by your delights.
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From now on, watch, wait until Tomorrow starts tonight. It's March Tonight. And
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happens tonight. It starts Tonight. Heart tonight,
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back. One of the most powerful things that you can remember right now is that you chose to be here in this human experience, courageously into this most miraculous and chaotic planet. You are not here to suffer. You're here to remember the soul that you are light, that you're here to shine, and all the emotion and thought that you will feel in between beginning and the end of this one precious life. It is well with your soul
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when I'm now and I'm now, it's in the water hold in still all the night when sorrow calls, when chaos on, my mind starts to settle in and limiting beliefs begin to startle me. I just close my eyes and remember, hey, these two shall pass. I know storm last always, and It's well with my soul Amen. Now,
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sir, use you, abuse me. Oh, media, where do we go with this history? Did we become the news of victims of thieves of all age, but news playing God,
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that It is well. We your soul.
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It's well we use way you sow. Israel.
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Common.
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You chose to be here courageously with yours. Well,
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help with myself.
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Connecting in with this of what you are capable of, and we are capable of so much more recognized, connecting in with that version of you, that purpose. Who is she? What is she? Ready for? So much more than you've ever given yourself credit. Now I choose continue to lose that temperature, physical movement to tap into this so much space, taking up as much your Breath. How do you take up more space? Born in
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all my name born and raised,
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back to my shame when a fountain of Grace is running my way, maybe just Having your hands.
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Even just having Your hands,
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I have A Living
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raised back i
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Oh, I'll sing out your praise.
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Day, born and raised back to
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I, was am
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day, You buried My
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Come on, sing it over yourself.
Janna Holterman 1:21:18
Okay, just taking a moment, to connect in with your body. Where are you at now? What do you notice that maybe you didn't notice before? Is there new sensations, new experiences? Were you able to define maybe what a particular emotion feels like in your body, or you may be able to tap into something you've never tapped into before. Maybe you're just kind of riding the high of feeling good all of it's okay. There's no expectations of what you had to get out of this. But I want you do? You know, see what you enjoy from this, maybe make your own playlist, connect into what you need to shift more using those tools, the colors, the temperatures, the textures or the sensations, how do we expand it? How do we evolve it? How do we grow it? How do we make that color burst out from it, or shift it kind of coming back into letting your body guide you, because our body truly knows how to process these emotions. We are just so used to living neck up that we've ignored it all of this time. So as we wrap up here, just kind of Yeah, do that self audit, self check in, see how everything is doing. And if you have any questions, please reach out to me, let me know. Go from
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