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Welcome back to unlocking your more with Janna Holterman, so let's get to it. Today. We're going to be talking about intuition and how it kind of pretty much changed everything in my life. I think it's important to kind of really understand the detail and the like depth that learning and understanding your intuition can truly amplify your life and so most people, I mean, everybody has their own, like level 10 trauma, their own things that have happened to them, that are like for them, the worst case scenario, the worst things they could have been through as a child, as an adult, all these things and understanding our higher selves and our soul, there is a lot of things that were soul plans in that they needed to happen in order for you to you know, either get fed up enough to make a change, to learn things to grow. And I think this is something that as, like, you know, human self can be extremely triggering and difficult to be. Like, well, this never should have happened to anybody. And I can definitely, like, Get behind while, you know, I wouldn't wish the things that happened to me on anybody, but at the same time, retrospectively, knowing what I know now, I can look back and think like, Well, if that didn't happen, I know for a fact, I wouldn't be on the path that I am on now, and it's almost given me a little Bit more peace and closure and stopped this like extreme level of resistance and almost like frustration that has happened. And so what I'm talking about, basically, is, if you haven't listened to the podcast episodes or heard my story in a workshop or something like that, a piece of my story being that I was married, and my husband became extremely like mentally unwell. He was diagnosed with bipolar. But there was a lot of different things happening, and we truly did everything like I truly can say that I feel like I did all the things that I knew how to do, got him as much help as I feel like I could get get him at that time. And nothing seemed to change. Nothing seemed to make a difference with the mental state that he was in, and he just got progressively worse over about a year of, like, our marriage and so being a nurse, I really, truly felt like I was at the hospital caring for people, and then I was coming home and caring for him, and like it was a mentally, emotionally, physically, like the most difficult time I had ever experienced up until that point. Because they're just like, you know, feeling so helpless and not really sure what to do, and yet trying everything and nothing seemed to be enough, right? And this was a belief system that I had to up until that point, that, like, I had to work really hard, and things were hard, and I had to figure out, and like, there was this level of perfectionism with it, that, like, you know, I had to find the right way, and that was the only way that was going to work. And so going through that situation, he, unfortunately, while I was at work, chose to take his own life, and that was his decision. And in doing that, of course, I came home from work to actually, I feel like I knew that I had this like that. My intuition was not trained at that point, but I still, I feel like all my I've been very intuitive, naturally with that, like strong inner knowing. So literally at work, got this like, you know, impending doom, like something horrible has happened, feeling and, you know, could not get a hold of him. So I ended up actually, like, leaving work early, so I knew had something had gone wrong, even though, like, literally, logically, had no
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explanation for that. So that was an indication of, like, my intuition being so strong, even at that. Time before I had actually, like, sat down and trained it. And so anyway, that happened, and then that began the, you know, next phase of the worst period of my life in I'm grateful for my time living up to that, because I had constantly been investing in myself. I constantly been, you know, understanding the brain I was. I had done a bunch of psychology classes in college. I was always really interested in the brain and neuroscience, and I had been working with a life coach. I had done my own life coach training, and I was working with nurses, helping healing their burned out burnout at that time. And so I really was, and I had taken kind of a step back from that. I think I, like, literally had 111 on one, like weekly client at that point, because I was just so, I mean, to be honest, I was in burnout myself from the caregiving and all that stuff. So I really, you know, had this difficult time. And the reason I'm going so in depth into this is because through that process, I recognize that number one, I truly didn't know who I was. I really didn't know what was my path? I didn't know. You know who I was behind all of the hats that I wore, yeah, nurse and wife and all these things. Like, I didn't know underneath all of it, like, who I was, I was still living this, like, this is the way I should be. And I think that was through so many aspects of my life. I was doing the things that I felt like I should do. I you know, it was the next logical step. I feel like I got married fairly early, because it was like, Oh, well, this is what we do, you know, you find somebody you love, you get married, you move on. And I did that with, like, purchasing the home that I currently live in. It was like, Oh, well, you know, I'm renting, and I shouldn't be renting. I should own a home. And I, like, you know, rushed in to buy a home and all these things. And this is kind of the pattern that was repeating itself. Is I was constantly living this life of, this is what I should do. This is what should happen to me. And so this is what I'm going to, like, take action on, because this is, like, the path, right? And so especially, I found that in nursing too, it was like, Okay, you start in med surge, and then you can go into, like, the specialty area that you want. And that was for me, I went into critical care. And then once I was in critical care, it was like, Okay, well, you need to know these, get these certain certifications, and, like, be trained to these certain kind of devices and and then, you know, if you're you are doing well and you're smart, then you should go become a mat like, get your master's degree, or get a nurse practitioner. And now it's like a DNP and all these things. So it was like this constant, like living life in the path of what I should do, and all of these things were repeating over and over and over again, Shane dying was the most devastating thing that's ever happened to me, but once I started to truly heal, and I think because it was so horrific, I actually gave myself permission to process where I feel like so many other things, I was like, Oh, this isn't a big deal. Like, I'll just shove it down. Shove it down. Shove it down when it came to emotions, right? But because it was such a big thing, it was like, no, like, I have every right to feel and to process and to grieve, and I allowed myself to feel emotions that I feel like I probably never felt my whole life, because I'd always push those down because I didn't feel like my emotions were valid up until that point. So number one, this showed me that my emotions can be valid and I can process them, and I figured out how to process them, and I really helped, you know, seeking out people to help me do that. And that was an incredible and really transform me, transformative process. And I feel like I was able to heal from that traumatic experience so much faster and be able to, like, talk about it and look at that situation without it destroying me, right? Like, I think there's so many of us that things happen to us, and even years later, we literally just start thinking about it, and we're already, like, wrecked emotionally because we haven't actually processed and so I processed that, and that was a huge thing, but this piece also was, like the crumbling, you know that like tower moment, where it's all of the identities that I had had up until that point crumbled, and I truly had to start over and come from this like,
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Who the fuck am I? What do I even want? Like my vision and my you know, and I was planner, right? The five and 10 year plan. And of what I was gonna like, what my life was gonna look like, what how things were gonna be, completely fucking evaporated overnight, right? Like this, completely shifted everything. And it really like once I had done this emotional processing, I recognized the power of emotional processing, because not only did I heal things from like the year leading up to and post like Shane's death, but I also processed things from nursing from childhood that I didn't even recognize were like massive patterns. And so I kind of opened up that door and recognized, like, how incredible emotional processing is, and how much that can truly change things and really step into a more deeper understanding for you know, how my body and my brain work together and create my experience of life. So that was one thing that was like, truly powerful from that, another component of that is recognizing how truly strong and capable I am. And so this was the true turning point, and the reason I am even went down this rabbit hole that I did not feel like I was going to go down to the extreme that I did, but knowing what I know now, there were still a lot of things from that traumatic situation that I was holding on to that I did not realize that I was holding on to. There was things that I had made that situation mean about myself that were not true. There were belief systems around, you know, not doing enough, my own value and worth that were tied into that whole situation. And, you know, when things like that happen, our brain kind of goes wild, and it makes it mean, what it almost like expects it to me. So our brains aren't coming up with new ways of thinking and believing. They're going back to what they've always known. They're going back to their baseline programming. And so my brain being programmed the way that it was. I was incredibly hard on myself from a very young age, and even in this traumatic situation, as I said, I was able to allow myself to feel and process like I hadn't been before, because it said my brain said it was significant of enough of a thing to allow that to happen, but I still created all of these new reinforcements of old belief systems and intuition. The last like two years has really been where I truly started to dive deeper into you know, what is intuition? How do I understand it. How do I start applying it? And then the deepest of which being the last like year where I, like, really went intensive and like trained it got training, practiced, it honed it now working with clients, like multiple times a week, in an intuitive capacity to train it continually. So where I wanted to go with that is intuition was the thing that true, Truly, truly, truly, allowed me to look at that situation and take complete understanding for what my brain made it mean, as well as removing this level of responsibility for it being my fault, even though, like, logically, you could say, oh, I know that's not My fault, but there was still this level of like fault that I felt, there was still guilt, there was still shame, there were still these things that I hadn't even processed, I hadn't even recognized, these belief systems that had been there for you know, my my whole life leading up to it had be taken this horrific thing and kind of used it as fuel for the fire to continue to be hard on myself and beat myself up. And through training of intuition, I was able to really see this is the belief system that is running the show. This is the emotion that is tied into that belief system that is creating this pattern in my life. This is why I haven't been
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able to fully move forward in this capacity. This is why I haven't been able to create what I want, and this is really what intuition has opened like open doors that i. I never thought possible of truly, truly getting to the root of anything, even like the traumatic things that I was with that went through with that whole situation, I have now been able to see, hey, this is what my brain processed that and made it mean. This is the emotion This is. And also, on top of that, being able to look at and see okay, knowing what I know about myself and how my brain processes and what it made it mean, how is the best way for my brain to shift that, to change that so that I can have a more beneficial, a more positive, positive, and not to be toxic positive of slap your smile on your face because you know you went through some horrific shit and get over it. No, this is literally like, how do I actually heal enough and then be able to transmit, like, almost transmute, that is the right word, into something like passion and purpose, and even like pride, like I feel so much pride for my courageousness in being able to go through what I went through and persevere, and then actually, like, take that magnifying glass and investigate it and and really truly get to the deep root of everything. And so the reason I wanted to go so deep into this is so you can see, like even with something as traumatic as that, intuition is the key to opening up doors in your brain, in your body and understanding. Why did this happen? Was this a sole plan? Was this, you know, me, me making a stupid decision, walking down the dark alley at night, kind of thing in a sketchy city, right? Or was it like, you know, something else, like, what led to this thing happening. Why did it happen? What did my brain make it mean? What emotion got trapped there when my brain made it mean? What it made it mean? And then how do I actually walk out of here in a deeper understanding of who I am, what I want and better onto my path, of what is for me, where I want to be, how I can continue to evolve and grow and use my story as a catalyst to help others, really, that is kind of like the most beautiful thing, and then taking all of this that I have knowledge, this knowledge that I have learned the hard way, I have learned it from trial and error. I have learned it from my mentors, and taken that and apply it to my own life and see what works and see what doesn't work. And then being able to take all these tools and then sit down with clients, especially in this one on one capacity, and be able to be see, you know, no matter what they've been through, we can get to the root of it to see, like, Okay, this happened. This is why it happened. This is what your brain made it mean. This is what the emotions got trapped and most importantly, this is the steps to you shifting it for good. And our brains have so much capacity for neuroplasticity, but if you don't understand why your brain made it, mean, if you don't get to the true root, it's so hard to shift something. And this is the same with emotions, right? Like I've talked about this before, but if you don't get to the root emotion, like you might think that the emotion is anger, and anger is something that you have the capacity to acknowledge. But what if there's something so much deeper under there, like resentment or like fear of abandonment, or something that's true emotion, and the reason why that's there, if you get to that true root and the reason why it's there, you can shift it so damn fast and be able to move past it, versus just getting to the surface level of what you think is the problem. Because our subconscious brain and our conscious brain don't really communicate. So we truly to shift and heal things. We really need to be tapping into our intuition so that we can figure out the route to shift it. That's why, like, I literally I did like talk therapy, cognitive behavioral style therapy, and I felt like it was so superficial, because it what we weren't getting to the source. We weren't getting to the root to actually
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shift it. And that was really where things started taking off for me in my own life, was when I started training my intuition and understanding those deeper roots and being able to actually access them so that I could truly heal them, so that I could truly move on with deeper compassion, understanding, acceptance and just like proud, like pride for myself. So I hope this just kind of gives you a, you know, a little overview of what is possible for intuition. And it's not just like, oh, like, you know, is it gonna work out happily ever after? Like, no, there is so much deep, incredible healing that can happen. And yes, you can use intuition to create the life you want to live. You can use it for manifestation. You can use it to heal physical ailments for your body with actually tapping into the specific root causes of things. There's so many different ways, but the true ways that have changed my life is that really figuring out what is running the show? What am I making things mean and then getting clearer and clearer every single day on, like, who actually am I? Like, why am I here? Like, what is my sole purpose for being here? And how do I step more and more into that while living my best damn life with it? Because I can truly tell you that I've I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life, because I understand myself more deeply, because I've learned to accept myself, because I've learned to have so much more compassion for myself and really focus on things that make me fulfilled, which allows me to have the energy and capacity to go and help and impact So many more lives. So if you are curious about intuition, the next couple episodes are all going to be about intuition, all leading up to my intuition Fundamentals course. So intuition fundamentals is a live eight week course. We you will literally go through the process of understanding how your intuition communicates mostly with you. You understand how to like, get yes, no questions. Going to start the process of getting percentage answers. So I always want the most accurate, scientifically accurate intuition, so I'm going to be teaching that process so that you can stop second guessing yourself and really trust like, hey, is this for me? Is this not for me? Should I take this step? Should I do this thing in those eight weeks, you're going to get deeper and deeper and deeper into learning the language and being able to communicate with your intuition so that you can really start healing things and becoming more and more yourself at your absolute fucking best. So we kick off may 12, which is an amazing day because it's my birthday. Funny enough, that was the day that in test, intested, intuitively, the highest for kicking off. So we're gonna be kicking off may 12. It is going to be eight weeks of live classes. I'm going to teach something, and then we're going to do breakout rooms so you can practice with partners to really hone and understand this gift that you we all have, right? This is just about you taking it and using it and learning the skill of communicating it and understanding it. So if you are listening to this live, May 30 is the last day to access the early bird offer that is going to be a three month payment plan versus the pay in full or the two month payment plan. And for the podcast listeners only, you actually can get an additional 10% off of the first payment or the entire course, depending on which payment plan you choose. So I am really looking forward to this is such a beautiful thing, and I can't wait to see you grow into your own intuitive abilities. If you enjoyed this episode, please rate review and maybe even share it with a friend. That is how this podcast gets pushed out to more people who can benefit it from it, just like you have.
